I have sort been hiding, in plain sight, since most of y’all see me at church or around anyway.

And, Stephen, GUESS WHAT?! CONGRATULATIONS! I FAILED! I failed at my first attempt to bring some order into the “mess” in my life…………Yes, I am STILL a recovering slob. I did get some stuff done in the kitchen tonight while I was waiting for the battle to begin with the washing machine. I was prepared to risk life and limb to keep it from escaping, as it keeps banging away. I have decided it may be banging as it stops running water or something like that. But, I will continue to stick around prepared for battle when I run a load of wash. Besides, it prompts me to actually get up and start getting something done.

And, I have a lot to get done. The dr has told me I really need to lose weight. My weight, and lack of exercise, are probably not helping my cellulitis. And there is a lot of change coming up…….y’all know what I am referring to. Change has always been a four letter word to me and I am working on changing my outlook on that. I also want to keep in touch with God about it so my world doesn’t get rocked off into capsizing as it has in the past.

I did just see a good movie called Bella. It’s about a girl who is single and pregnant and planning on abortion. There were a few profound statements made in the movie. It started with a narrator saying “You wanna make God laugh? Tell Him your plans.” That hit me as really funny and very true. We can plan all we want. However, usually God does not have the same plans we do. And, it probably does amuse Him that we waste all this time planning things and then He changes our plans. I thought about it and how that has happened in my life and I laughed too.

The girl, planning on having the abortion, was discussing different things with this guy she had worked with in a restaurant. She had just been fired and he had walked out for the day. (It was his brother’s restaurant) He told her not to worry about things. She told him she used to worry a lot. But she said she had researched worry and in her research found that 10 out of 10 people die. I had to laugh about that. Basically, why waste time worrying, we’re all gonna die anyway. (I don’t mean we’re gonna die in a negative way. I mean it to point out what a waste worry is. And that is a HUGE point for me).  So, can we all agree to stop worrying? I know…….Easier said than done. Well, I am gonna take it to God myself. But, it is a point well taken.

There was one other statement that hit me profoundly. It was on a piece of cardboard that a blind guy had with him where he was selling things on the street. The sign said “God closed my eyes, Now I can see.” I don’t want to go blind to “see”. But, I think that sign is telling us that we don’t “see” and we need to open our eyes and “see” God’s world. Really see it………

Anyway, God bless and good night.